I have officially applied to the last college I will apply for. I was lucky you see, the colleges only required me to sit for fifteen minutes and fill out addresses and click on bubbles, and my ACT scores and GPA are all more than enough to get me accepted, but even then its been a stressful couple of weeks. And all I had to do was click bubbles! Whats so stressful about that? Some may even argue that clicking bubbles is relaxing.
I know I'm not the only one feeling the stress of college application. Almost every day in my English class we have a talk with our teacher who tells us repeatedly, every single day, that things will be just fine and there is no need to worry about it. Some of my classmates are so stressed out they actually cry, right there in class. Thankfully, I have not been so overwhelmed that its gotten to that point, but I have been vaguely irritated for a while, and I'll remind you, all I had to do was click bubbles.
So I don't know why I'm stressed. I'm good at school, I even got accepted into one of the colleges I applied for, I don't have a lot of homework, I have good friends and good relationships, my parents are kind and loving people, my hopes for the future are high, I have a little bunny I can cuddle, I discovered a new series on Netflix, I have a creative outlet that I'm good at, and I have a fridge stocked with raspberry lemonade. But here I am, wallowing in stress and getting angry at people for no reason, and frowning when in truth I have every reason to be happy.
I think we all fall victim from time to time to the hype of being sad and overwhelmed. Its normalized, sometimes even romanticized or idolized in our culture that stresses the need for hard work and overwhelming education. You must be a straight A student and a president of five clubs and do community service and be a generically good person and have a nice partner that you take cute Instagram photos with and you have to dress nice and smell good and be a picture perfect person, and that can be overwhelming because we're all just human after all. And this whole college application thing? Its all that stress on steroids. The college application process is not bad, not even sort of (at least for me), but because every day i walked into an English class full of crying, overwhelmed people, i felt the need to be overwhelmed too, when in truth, everything is just fine.
So let it stand. My name is Carrot, and I am the co-owner of this blog, and I have applied to college, and got accepted into one and will likely be accepted into the others with a scholarship, and it was a wonderful process, and I am okay, I am happy, I am fulfilled, and I have a bright and full future and gosh darn it I will not cry in my English class because in the scheme of things there really is nothing to cry about. Some people would kill for the opportunity to apply for college, or to be accepted, or to actually go to college at all. And while I'm all for the idea that everyone's pain and problems are important, and the severity of one person's pain doesn't discount your own, sometimes i think we all need to take a step back and realize that our problems aren't really as bad as they seem.
Our senior activity day is soon, and we get to skip school and no teacher is assigning homework, and i intend to spend the whole day messing around with my friends at a park, eating pizza, carefree and delightful. Because gosh darn it I deserve it, and happiness, after all, is mostly a choice you make. So here I am, going on record, stating that from this day onward i am going to make the decision to be happy, rather than wallow in fake stress and anger at no one, and nothing in particular. That is all.
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