Long time no post!! Last month I was a little bad on uploading some new content because I had a lot going on at the time. So I wanted to hop on to give you guys a little life update and maybe I'll gain some insight from writing a quick little life update. So grab some snacks because this might be a long one.
As some of you guys may know my family and I are originally from Ohio. Most of our family still lives there so every year over summer we always make the long voyage out to see everyone. I always love spending time with my family over the summer because I'm so "family deprived" the rest of the year. I was originally planning on going back to visit family mid June and returning early July. My departure date moved up when my grandfather died. So my family and I headed back to Ohio early on our way to our funeral.
It made sense for us to stay out after the funeral, so it seemed like I was going to be in Ohio for a month. As much as I love seeing all my aunts, uncles and cousins it got to be a little too much. To add on top of it all, I came to a "mid-life crisis." At the young age of 17, I've had many of them. But this one was different.
Earlier in the year I had taken the SAT and not done too hot on it but I planned on taking it again with my vision set on going to school in Utah getting my bachelors of science in conservation biology. One morning I was sitting there and it just hit me that I was chasing after something I didn't know if I really wanted. Yes, I love animals and more specifically orca whales, but could I make a career out of it?
People tell you to chase after your passions in life and build a career around it. But could my love and interest become my job? Realistically, I've always struggled in science (so why would i get a science degree?) and the ocean scares me (so I could never live on a boat and do research). I believe that people should chase after their dreams and passions and do something that excites them but for me I felt like I was putting all my chips in the wrong place.
So where am I now? Well, currently I'm on a airplane headed home early. As much as I love Ohio I had to get back home to figure things out. I don't necessarily need to go home and figure out what I'm going to spend the rest of my life doing; however, I do need to go do some soul searching. Maybe I'll find clarity in doing yoga in the woods, taking a walk or watching a good rom com and crying.
I'd like to apologize for my lacking presence this past June. During all this I tried to create but was struggling with creating something that had emotion and power. I hope for a better July, both in the creating department and just overall. I promise I'll talk to you guys later.
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