Everyone's journey with anxiety and other mental illnesses are different, what worked for me might not work for you. I wanted to open up about something I've struggled with for a very long time in hopes of it finding people at the right time.
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As I start this new chapter of my life across the country and with no familiar faces around me, I've wanted to open up a little more to you guys. I have been putting off writing this post for a very long time but after my first day of college classes, I truly feel ready to share. So here's my big "secret": I have anxiety. And today I'll be sharing my journey with you guys and tell you where I'm at with it now.
This post is hard because I'm not too sure where to start. I guess I'll start with this; going into high school I decided to choice into high school (which basically means I wasn't going to my "home school" and instead choosing into a school where I knew exactly no one). I had basically been with the same group of kids since elementary school, so it was a little daunting to me to be going to a new place. As excited as I was, I was also very nervous. I was so full of fear and uncertainty that I decided to go to therapy. I regularly went to him for about a year and my sophomore year we decided that I was pretty set to go, with the understanding that I could always come back. He helped with coping with my anxiety and gave me lots of tools.
While he gave me so many tools, I didn't find one that truly worked for me. I tried journaling, yoga, essential oils, coping techniques and countless other things. They all helped me live with my social anxiety, but I still faced panic attacks and other bad moments. So, I finally talked to my doctor about it this summer. I had the same feelings about college as I did high school, and I wanted to see if there was something I could get to help me, seeing as I moved across the country away from my family and friends. I got onto a non-addictive anxiety medication. The point of this story isn't to encourage everyone to go onto medication, but rather start the conversation so people can find what works for them.
I also wanted to discuss how my meds make me feel. At first I was nervous to start something, as I had never really been on regular medications. I feel like with them I don't feel the "physical side effects" I'd get when i experience anxiety. Don't get me wrong, I still have bad moments but with the meds I just feel far more relaxed and not as overwhelmed with anxiety.
Not sure how to end this but thank you for giving me a platform to share my story!
I'm sending you guys all my positive energy and wish nothing but the best for you!
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