As senior year is winding down, graduation looms before me and my future is looking me dead in the eyes. And I have thoughts, lots and lots of thoughts about graduation. Here are my thoughts.
I choiced into my high school (and if you don't know that means, I basically decided to go to a school outside of my neighborhood aka away from all my friends and start fresh at a new school where I knew no one) and it was pretty rough for me. I struggled to make friends and put myself out there and I spent too many lonely lunches and days dreaming about the day I could graduate and finally be free of the whole high school experience and move onto bigger things. But then something happened, I found friends, and pretty good ones at that. Now that I have these friends, it's weird to think that I'm going to have to start fresh again, at a new school where I know no one.
It's not that I'm not ready to graduate, I just can't imagine being graduated. That doesn't make sense so let's break that down. I've made so amazing friends and memories and I have a college decision that I'm super excited about, and I feel so ready to graduate and leave but in the same breathe, your girl just can't picture moving across the country to start college. I know deep down that college is the fresh start I need to start becoming an adult and growing up even more, but I just feel not ready. I still want to be a kid and live in the comforts of my own home, and have dinner with my family, and not be a broke college kid, and hang out with my friends and play ping pong, and I'm just not ready to say goodbye to it all.
I'm not ready but at the same time I'm so ready to start a new chapter. As one door closes, another opens.
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